Repost from earlier this summer off my personal Facebook page!
I’m KEEPING my skin!
Since I started my journey I’ve used the hashtag #nosurgeryweightloss many times. Lately its resonated with me. No surgery. I lost 235lbs without invasive surgery. It goes through my mind. No Surgery. What if You dont NEED surgery on your transformation. What if I keep it?
For over a year I dreamt of getting my skin removed. Wanted to “look normal”. I wanted to be normal.
I planned and plotted how to financially afford it. Made calls about loans built a business to bring in more income.
I even called to get consultations done in July as my birthday gift for myself. Consultations that cost real money. Not imaginary one day money.
Then I looked in the mirror and liked what I saw. I didnt see my skin as a shameful reminder of how I let myself go but as a mark of how far I’ve come. How I’ve grown as a person. It was with me at 420 lbs it’s still here at 183 its stuck with me because its a part of me.
I may change my mind one day but right now I want to take some time to enjoy my body as it is without planning or plotting to change it.
I didn’t lose weight to get “hot” I lost weight to get healthy. I feel like I’m there. I feel great and personally I think I look great. Period. No… despite the skin. No …even with the skin. I didnt get here alone I’ve had help lots of help. People that want me to be happy with or without the skin.
But today I’m committed to loving myself how I am. No exceptions. Scars stretch marks and excess skin. All of me. No future plans to change me.
So when you see me out this summer or hear someone make a comment about my loose skin please know…I dont care. I dont need to know about it. I dont care if some finds it unsightly. I dont care if it would take additional pounds off my body. The only person who’s opinion matters is my own. Today I love me. All of me. As long as I’m happy and healthy then theres no reason for me to want to be anything other then who im naturally meant to be ❤